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About 2 years without drawing. 

Mostly because my life literally fell apart. All the way down to the core. I was completely lost, without purpose or desire to live. I was just, broken. In every sense of the word. I lost myself completely and wanted to die. 

And that's heart wrenching and sad. Because I still have days where I want to. I don't want to fight anymore, I'm exhausted. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I'm sitting here and wishing more than anything that someday, somewhere, I can inspire someone not to jump... because god how I wished someone grabbed my arm and just stared me in the face and said, "Please don't leave me." 

But I am still here. I am still fighting through all this exhaustion, still plastering a smile to my face in hopes that one day it won't be so fake. 

Art is saving my life right now. So please, if you think you're terrible, as much as I know I am, don't stop. You could be the last thing making someone hang on. Making someone think before they act. 
  • Listening to: Don't Let me Down The Chain Smokers
to make a superhero who is suffering from depression. 

Like they fail at suicide and then someone says something really inspiring and it changes their entire way of thinking and they start becoming really hopeful and start saving people from killing themselves. And then - they'll fail, maybe once and it sends them into this deep depression where they hit rock bottom - and then someone really important, someone famous, like an actor or something meets them and just says this one thing that lifts them up again - and they try to be that hero, to replicate that person, and I just think that a story or comic like that would really help a lot of people. 

Depression isn't funny, and it's really really hard to feel that low and I want to touch people's hearts and let them know it's okay. It's okay to be sad and feel useless, it's okay to ask for help. 

Like... I really want to do this. Even if no one appreciates it, because... I wanted a hero like that to save me. 

I wanted someone to tell me that my life was still worth living - to talk me down.

I need to do it. It's not even a want. 

I have to. 
So my life has been torn away from the beauty that I once knew. 
I've been cheated on, I'm getting divorced after barely a year and a half of marriage - and I'm honestly just so fucking done with people in person I'm losing my goddamn mind. 

ON the bright side - I have found my passion again - and I'll be damned if I'm going to let ANYONE take it away from me. 
So I'm back - hopefully I'll be better about keeping up with art and stories and what not. Currently I'm very much obsessed with Stony <3 LIke seriously it's devouring my soul and I'm aok with it xD

So onward onto art! Hopefully the followers I have will actually read this - and I hope you are all doing well <3

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Kyo
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Please read my manga: Alien Mark
Also my new oneshot/pilot will be available Wednesday March 20th! Pandora's Box


Current Residence: as of the moment your pants :D
Favourite genre of music: Dubstep
Favourite style of art: Manga/Anime
Personal Quote: "Achieving is only half of dreaming"
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About 2 years without drawing. 

Mostly because my life literally fell apart. All the way down to the core. I was completely lost, without purpose or desire to live. I was just, broken. In every sense of the word. I lost myself completely and wanted to die. 

And that's heart wrenching and sad. Because I still have days where I want to. I don't want to fight anymore, I'm exhausted. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I'm sitting here and wishing more than anything that someday, somewhere, I can inspire someone not to jump... because god how I wished someone grabbed my arm and just stared me in the face and said, "Please don't leave me." 

But I am still here. I am still fighting through all this exhaustion, still plastering a smile to my face in hopes that one day it won't be so fake. 

Art is saving my life right now. So please, if you think you're terrible, as much as I know I am, don't stop. You could be the last thing making someone hang on. Making someone think before they act. 
  • Listening to: Don't Let me Down The Chain Smokers

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:iconajtakashi:
ajtakashi Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
What's up dude?
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Kyoky-San Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I could think of a few things XD
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tofu-yu Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2013
Heyy thank you soo much for the watch :D 
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I am almost as delighted as a turkish delight :D
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Kyoky-San Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hahahaha, you're funny.

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tofu-yu Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013
:iconfinallyplz: Thank you. thank you so much :')
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